This is an attempt to put into words my long observation and research about anti depressants, and it won’t be easy given that I was on them.
Brene brown, who has been researching “vulnerability” for seven years, found that the most vulnerable people are the happiest people. And she defines vulnerability as the traits you choose to hide from the world in order to be accepted. We think of vulnerability as a dark emotion; the core of fear, shame and uncertainty, so we choose not to feel it and do what is possible to numb it. What she found after her research, is that vulnerability is the birthplace of every positive emotion that we need; joy, love and empathy. It is the path of forgiveness, love, belongingness, true friendships and intimacy,
We are living in a world that is afraid of vulnerability which is why we are the most medicated in history. We usually wake up in the morning and armour up, protect ourselves from expressing who we are, and so we continue hiding, we armour up to be safe and hide our imperfections. When you look beneath the shiny armour, you would find that what we are really protecting is the heart.
Without vulnerability, there is no human connection. Vulnerability is the capacity for wholeheartedness, and you can’t reach that without the willingness to be brokenhearted, and knowing that there is nothing shameful in that.
There is nothing shameful in being afraid to lose a friend, or in the fear of being rejected.
Vulerabality is letting go of your ego in order to allow yourself to be who you really are, fully, with your dark side and your light side, and you accepting that.
Brene Brown also differentiates between weakness and vulnerability, I suggest you look into that on her Ted Talks on YouTube.
The most important thing she mentioned is: a human cannot selectively numb certain feelings while allowing other feelings to be felt, so when a person numbs depression with anti depressants, joy cannot be felt.
So if you, in a way or another, are attempting to silence anxiety, fear, depression, you are also numbing joy, love and trust.
Why are we so afraid to become vulnerable then?
As they say, the only way out is through.
Anti depressants aren’t the answer
© 2014 ALIA SULTAN